NetPie22

I’m so damn happy y’all! I’m 19, and now that i have a decent amount of money saved, i can finally feel comfortable about looking into seeing a doctor, i can finally feel a bit more secure should an emergency happen, hell if i can keep growing my savings i plan to possibly take a small vacation with my partner in a year or two!

i know it’s just money, but being abused as a kid, i spent so much of my life feeling powerless, and given money is in a way power, i finally feel a bit safer/more secure about my life now :,)

I’m 19, just finished my freshman year of college, and no one ever really taught me about finances, so I’ve kinda been trying to figure it out for myself... It’s a bit stressful if i’m being honest. My bank always used to have like $1000 at most in it, and it’s recently come to be around $8,000, so I’m wondering how to sort it all out.

I don’t really spend much every month, my parents still cover living expenses so all I really buy is fast food with my friends here and there. The only other cost that might be soon is some medical stuff, but hopefully insurance will cover it. I figure setting $1000 aside for all that is (hopefully) plenty, so the rest I’ve decided to invest in stocks, and it

i hear CSE220 is good to take before 310, but there’s nothing open now or over the summer for that class, so i’m worried i won’t be prepared enough to take 310. also, i don’t know what instructor to take, or what to expect- really, any advice about the class would be hugely appreciated

i just found this community, and in doing that tried to see how long i could rumble. realized i have to not breathe for it to work (it’s like i have to have all my muscle focus on my ears).

what are all your experiences with doing other stuff while rumbling?

“Hi <deadname>. How are you? How is school going? <some other small talk> We LOVE you!!!! ❤️❤️❤️”

She doesn’t know im trans, so seems like no big deal right?

well

There’s a reason she doesn’t know. I came out to my grandpa already, he was nice about it but when I asked about telling grandma it was strongly implied it might be better to “give it time” aka stay silent. So ok, fine, I was never close to grandma anyway so what do I care. This is the same (very “religious”) woman who thinks women shouldn’t be allowed to vote after all.

BUT now I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to just reply to my deadname as if I have no issue with it, but I can’t just ghost her eithe

I’m allergic to grass so it was a little itchy, got a few big bites, but he’s always been like “man if you weren’t allergic to grass I’d totally throw you down in it and just (play) wrestle with you.” That’s always sounded like a super enjoyable time, so today I decided to not let some stupid plant cockblock me and did it anyway.

It was so much fun. Normally I’m too paranoid of others seeing me to show any PDA beyond occasional handholding, but it was dark and no one seemed to be around, so I made myself loosen up some- and I’m really glad i did. We ended up just laying in the field, looking up at the stars and talking to each other. And wooow, it was nice :,)

I want to be more positive. So, instead of ranting on the bad and hating myself, I’m here to appreciate the good. I do think one of my comments on a post might be being targeted by the same person with alt accounts, and while there are some valid points in criticizing me, no, I don’t deserve to cut my wrists all alone in my room and die like a few said, I’m not some whiny girl/bitch, I don’t deserve my failing health, and i am worth it.

I guess the title is somewhat deceiving- I have a small scratch on my arm I made with a thumbtack I found, no more than an inch. But that’s it. It didn’t even draw blood, I held myself back from doing anything more, and it’s nowhere near the level

My hips hurt really bad, the ac in my apartment is broken so my room is 86 degrees, I’m having really bad anxiety/dysphoria/depression, and I have a ton of homework I should do... I know it’s not that bad but all of this is making me feel overwhelmed.

I really want to relapse, but I have to keep telling myself, I can’t self harm because then I can’t wear shorts or tank tops, and I need to be able to cause it’s 110 out when I have to bike to classes... speaking of biking, I have to do at least 4 miles biking tomorrow and my hips are still in so much pain. just the though of that plus the heat makes me want to give up and let my life go to shit.

Also, for what feels like the millionth tim

I don’t think it happens every time I have sex, so maybe it’s just other circumstances like me being dehydrated that cause this, but a lot of the time I have an upset stomach after sex. Tends to feel like my lower abdomen is just kind of uncomfortably bloated, maybe even bruised inside, for lack of a better way to put it.

If it matters to know, I do have unprotected sex, so ya boi gettin creampied, but, I know me and my partner are both std free. (For clarification, I am a non-op trans guy, so I have a vagina/ am the nutt receiver^TM )

So, is this normal? What causes it? Should I be concerned? Is there any way for me to avoid this in the future?