Scarabus

Hi, fellow bronies and pegasisters! Omega! I doubt anybody here remembers little old me. I had my 15 seconds of fame with a sort of MLP/ragecomic thing back in the day and little ponies are sentimental, so maybe some of you sort of remember me as a random goofball who was always hanging around in the twilight (so to speak) and hiding (sort of) in the margins...

Anyhow. I'm just checking in to tell you sentimental little ponies (including even the most pervy and most sentimental ones of you--and I'm not just talking about the 'cloppers' here, if you get my drift).

Anyhow. I'm doing just fine and am basically who I always was except a bit more happy for one reason or another (or two or three

"Hi! I'm here to help you with your ill fish!"

"That's very nice, but it's actually a dolphin, and..."

"Oh, that doesn't matter really!"

"Huh? Uh, yes, yes, it does."

"I am just not that concerned with labeling, you know. You call it a dolphin, I call it a fish, we are both right in our own way, is my view. What matters is that we both want to help this poor fish."

"It's not a... look... it doesn't matter what we call it as such, as long as you realize that there's a difference."

"I absolutely respect your belief that your fish is special!"

"I... that's very openminded, but it's still not a fish. It's a dolphin."

"All right then. Let's not argue. We can agree to disagree. The basic n

I asked for help here a while back. Since then things have improved for me in lots of ways. This may not be relevant to someone else, but I decided I wanted to share the main lessons I personally got from the show.

Lesson One: Bad Things Happen (cheerful, huh?)

"The bitterness in the young one's heart had transformed her" ... "We spent our days working the fields. There was no talking. There was no smiling." ... "I usually just get one present" ... "I couldn't wait to see you again. But when I came to your room the next day, you were gone" ... "A time when ponies were torn apart, by hatred" ... "We got the whole family together this time round! Who knows if they'll all be able to make the

/awesome

/mmfb

/freebies

/getmotivated

/aww

/todayilearned

(/explainlikeimfive)

I don't really know where to start. Short version is I have been struggling with serious depression and anxieties (mostly social) for a long time. I've been in therapy on and off, spent some time in a mental hospital (less dramatic than it sounds).

I've never been suicidal though or turned to any kind of active self-destructive behaviour. So that's good.

Medication and various coping strategies work pretty well at keeping me from getting seriously depressed these days. But I'm miserable. Not clinically depressed, just ordinarily miserable and lonely and kind of tired.

For a while, a pretty long while actually, that seemed good enough, and I've been coasting, treading water, procrastinatin