u/jerrefree
Hey guys, I experienced something while meditating and I was wondering if anyone could shed some light on it. I experience this deep state of ecstacy while meditating, my eyes roll back into my head, it's stronger than any orgasm and I sort of become numb to the outside world, it was really cool!
I've been trying so hard to lose weight, I dunno if it's these fucking antipsychotics but it's miserable, I just can't lose this fucking 20lbs i've put on since i've started the medication. I feel ugly, I feel fat and I feel unattractive. My confident is shot and I don't know what to do. I just wanna date and feel fucking normal and attractive like everyone else. I hate being fat. I hate it I hate it I hate it. Eurgh. This might be more to do with body image, it probably is but I just want to rant right now. My social anxiety fucked with me today. I went to meditation class and there were so many attractive people dating and talking and being relaxed and comfortable.
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How was it? Do you do anything special to avoid another breakdown?
I'm on aripiprazole 5mg, no positive symptoms but I really want to go to sleep. Like, I can't work the feeling is so strong. Is this a negative symptom, a side effect of the medication, or something else? Everything else if fine, it's just this stupid sleepiness, help?
Especially if all you wanna do is go back to bed or browse reddit all day
I'm reading the divided self and it describes me to a tee! It's lucky i'm in therapy and going through all these changes or otherwise i'd be stuck living the same way i've always lived. Give the book a read, it's eye opening to say the least.
Just a thought experiment
He made the show interesting and worth watching.
Then Smackdown was pretty good for a while
Now...nothing :(
There was some difficulty around whether or not I was going back to university after my episode and it's all been cleared up and I'm going back. I'm so excited and happy and woooooooooo!
Does anyone meditate? How that going for you?
I was so anxious and nervous but I persisted until I was a little bit relaxed, I went to a meditation class and met some people. I was quiet especially around girls but I talked to a couple of guys, it was ok. But man dealing with this social anxiety is a bitch but I'm going to learn to manage it. Anxiety suks, fuk
What books are you reading?
I just read 'The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck' by Mark Manson. I thought it was really good and had a lot of interesting life lessons that we should all bare in mind. I liked how he talked about values a lot.
What about you?
How much does schizophrenia limit your life?