loneWolfProgrammer

http://imgur.com/a/KlTKI

I'm posting these in r/rateme too, and I'm expecting very low scores. I'm 100% convinced that I'm incredibly ugly and unworthy of a relationship. I'm just a boring nerd.

I guess being ugly has some advantages. She hates me so much that the checkout experience is fast and efficient with minimal communication.

Somebody kill me. This is why I don't like shopping.

They think they're doing a good deed but I think it's an act of absolute cruelty on thier part.

Yeah that's it guys, convince an ugly freak like me to humiliate myself, waste time and effort, etc to try and approach girls, talk to them online, etc.

Fortunately I don't believe a word they say. And I find it hard to believe that they believe it either. I'm not one of them and it's insulting to them to suggest I'm like them.

Why do they bother? Most of them don't anymore. They're very happy to throw platitudes at me while watching me rot away.

I am an ugly boring freak. No girl has ever looked my way without feeling disgust. I've always been single and I always will be.

I know I'm wearing a dumb half-smile in two of those pictures. When you're ugly as I am there's not much reason to smile in photos.

Brutal honesty would be appreciated.

https://imgur.com/bmo58Mq https://imgur.com/ndzXw8N https://imgur.com/fZeMJEC

Recently I was out with a few friends and thier girlfriends. As usual I was the only single person in the group. The spare wheel.

They all know my situation - I'm a 30 year old boring ugly freak virgin loser who has never had a girlfriend.

That day depressed the shit out of me - which didn't seem to occur to them one bit. They were all in thier own little world and all they cared about was thier own happiness. After the event they complained to me about my "negativity" and how it was negatively impacting them on that day. They were in love for fuck sake, at the peak of happiness, and I had nothing, and they have the nerve to complain about me being depressed. Is that selfish of them? W

Don't mind me I'm just ranting :)

My friends and family try to convince me that I'm normal and that I'm capable of finding someone and being happy but I believe they're lying. If they truly believed what they say then they'd at least try to set me up with someone or wingman me, or even offer to do so. But instead they never do that, because they agree that I'm an ugly freak.

Thier inaction betrays what they truly think. Of course, they're not obligated to do anything and I am solely "responsible for my happiness," but the thought to actively help rarely if ever surfaces. In the past friends have said random comments like "he needs to get a girlfriend," "he needs to get laid" or even "let'

I glanced at her a couple of times and naturally she doesn't even know I exist. She gets on this route regularly. I saw her talking to someone once and her smile is just heavenly. I feel pathetic just writing this. Because it's just a random girl on a bus, and also because the very notion of me being attracted to someone is utterly absurd unnatural and pathetic.

It's a known rule that if I'm attracted to someone in any way, they are repelled by me. Knowing this, I just want to fucking die. I could just jump off a tall building right now and I don't give a damn odd the outcome (as long as nobody else is hurt of course)

I just want to get home and go to bed.

I don't think they mean it, but when they see one of thier friends depressed about being a forever alone loser, they just ignore him. They do it to me. They just continue enjoying thier surplus happiness while I get lost I'm a darkness despite my efforts to keep my head above it all.

It's like they're showing off. "Haha I have a girl to comfort me at night and talk to for hours on end, you just have your hand and a PC, loser"

If I was in a relationship, I would at least spare a thought for those less fortunate, maybe even try to help them find a relationship. Not brag in front of them, implicitly teasing them about thier insecurities and shitty life.

Edit: spelling

Just a brief rant.

As the title said. I'm going to a friends birthday and he's in a relationship as is everyone else he's invited.

Most of them are aware of how much of a loser I am.

I'll be thirty in January. I feel it may cement my status as professional loser. A textbook example of what an ugly creepy boring loser is.

I'll try and have a good time, they're good people and I think I'm in the right mindset for it, but reality is always there to remind me.

I've seen some nice girls on the train, so that's already put same negative thoughts in my mind.

Today in particular, it's Friday, I haven't had a decent night sleep since Saturday and I have a nasty cold/man flu which leaves me feeling more like shit than usual.

Most of my friends have a girlfriend/fiancé/wife to come home to and be comforted by. All I have in my room to come home to is a cold empty and unmade bed. I would give my life to have that level of comfort and love for a day. And they just take it for granted. They even boast about it on Facebook and IRL.

My life sucks. If I were to post this on Facebook, 99% of people would callously ignore it, and others would assault me with platitudes and say how "they don't like to see this kind of stuff" which is a veiled attempt at te

Think about it.

I'm certain that attractive girls live very easy lives, men queue up to be with them, give them money. Employers are more likely to hire them.

Getting a partner is trivial to them. They can chose to be single or not.

They have the pick of 99% of all men.

Thier attractiveness boosts thier power to manipulate men.

Ugly guys like myself are the total opposite of that.

I'm so tired of life. Tired of getting out of bed Tired of work Tired of coming home and feeling like shit Tired of lonely weekends Tired of idle sympathy Tired of being unwanted and undesirable

I just want to die. At times like this, death seems like sleep, and I'm tired.