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might be more of a personal problem cos i've absolutely no confidence atm but you ever really struggle with the idea of why you're doing this? like, at what point does self belief become delusion? i dunno i fully believe in the power of stories but from a personal perspective, what right do i have to people's attention?

tryna figure out if it's my need to not bother, to pretend i'm fine at all times so no one gets worried or if i don't wanna be a burden. it's not great, lads. spent so long not expressing what's wrong that i honestly don't know if i could if i tried. it's not very 100.

iunno. on a personal level, no job, nothing on the horizon, no real reason to get up in the morning. i've lost kinda all confidence in myself so i can't finish anything or even tweet without feeling it's worthless. not been able to see a lot of the people i love over the past year; i couldn't see my nan for six months before she passed due to covid restrictions. i even just miss pub with my mates.

and the world at large i mean, my country's ran by the tories who are fuelled by hate, the economy's fucked and about to get even more fucked by brexit. the fields i was interested in have been decimated by covid. realistically i don't see this getting better. this isn't a morose suicidal post (i

given the news that everyone in the world is joining Spider-Man 3, i've been wondering how much of jon watts will survive the process that will 100% be noted to death. then it occurred to me that for all i enjoyed his two spideys, i don't really know what parts of it are him. he's the first marvel guy to finish a trilogy but gunn, whedon, peyton reed all have some voice even if it's diluted; i can't really tell what watts' deal is. i guess he must be good with teenagers & a pretty decent guy to work with if he can manoeuvre the sony/disney interference three times but i don't even know what he looks like - a quick search revealed he's basically wes bentley. is jon watts just wes bentley?

i know what he looks like and i still keep thinking rorschach's talking. it's messed up

mostly inspired by me remembering david moyes was favourite to be spurs manager in 2012 and thinking the massive impact that would've had on the league - like he wouldn't have replaced ferguson (probably), so mourinho might have taken that, and united may not have struggled. sliding doors i guess.

so yeah, who were the alternative managers that your team didn't pick and how'd you think it would've worked out?

i don't remember redknapp beating anyone out for the job (could be wrong) but in 2012, it was moyes or martinez (i think maybe rodgers too? but liverpool had basically claimed him then). i think moyes would've been hounded though maybe not as intensely as he was at united; he'd probab

tryna figure out if this is bpd or a separate broken brain thing.

basically i keep having strong lightheadedness, nothin new, but it's coupled more and more with displacement - i just think i'm somewhere i'm not. like i was walkin today and i swore i was in my home town (which is 250 miles away) cos it looked similar and my brain was convinced i was there. i also keep thinking my gf's house is my old grandparents house, like *certain* that it is; i've also felt while high that i am in different places and it's made me mad anxious (it is why i don't smoke no mo). does anyone else get this, what is this, and how d'you get a handle on it

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Hello! Willing to swap with anyone, I've given notes on Coverfly before and have lot of writing experience (got shortlisted for something earlier this year). Honestly this is me tryna figure out if the central concept works; it's a story about violence begetting violence and the legacy of Western intervention. It's told sort of through a pulpy style, mostly cos it's my movie and I wanted to.

Basically looking for comments about whether you could ever see this working; it's gone through multiple shapes and this is the "best" version (in ab

five years ago I decided to kill myself. as you can see I didn't and i managed to persevere, went back to school, to uni...but now I'm back here in bed because my stomach feels hollow and I'm so tired of being this corrosive influence. I just have bad things people say about me looping in my head. it feels the same and i hate that I let this happen. i feel so small and i miss so much and i just - the thought of havin to drag myself back to normality somehow is horrible. i just don't know if i have it in me.