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is it safe to take psychedelics like lsd or mushrooms or could that increase the possibility of having a seizure? i take epilepsy medication. i don’t want to accidently mess my brain up just because i was being stupid one time.

in my opinion american horror story’s plot is perfect and the casting is amazing but ryan murphy makes the show like 30% less good then it would be by adding an unnecessary amount of rape scenes. wish he would stay away from the whole “sexual horror aspect” and just focus on all other aspects of horror.

had a dream i was watching American Horror Story: Asylum, but in the dream the entire plot was changed into all the men characters and male aliens getting pregnant and giving birth to eggs,and i was in a weight loss competition with Malcolm and Reese from Malcolm In The Middle. for some reason, i also somehow managed to buy gifs but like irl. like stickers that were animated like a gif and you can stick them to things like regular stickers, so i called my grandma and my friend to tell them about my gifs.

then i woke up.

i haven’t done xanax since i accidently overdosed on valentine’s day and woke up in the hospital after a 3 day long xan black out, as i ended up in this little mental treatment center thing for 5 weeks. i’m sober from it but it’s literally always on my mind. all day long i think about it. every second of the damn day. i’m trying so hard to relapse because i don’t want to ruin my life anymore, ive lost friends and lost all trust from my family. i’ve failed all my classes and i want to get better, i really do. i don’t know how much longer i can stay sober. the only way ive been able to distract myself is by smoking. my voice is raspy and i have to buy a new pack every 2 days and waste so much

i have naturally long lashes but i like to put a LOT of layers of mascara to make them look like fake eyelashes. i dont rip my eyelashes out putting on the mascara and i dont use a lash curler. the problem is, i have such a hard time taking it off that it takes like 20 minutes, and i end up ripping a lot of my lashes out and i have a lot lashes lashes now. i dont use waterproof mascara, i use regular mascara, i use the green essence lash princess mascara. please recommend eye makeup remover specifically for mascara.

how do i get a boyfriend? i’m really shy and really scared of rejection. i’ve had a few guys hit on me but i didn’t find them attractive. i had one guy hit on me who i did actually find attractive and ended up in a situationship with him for a few weeks but he felt too uncomfortable about the age gap since im 15 going into sophomore year and he’s 17 graduating, and he starting dating a girl and he stopped talking to me. i never really ever hit on any guys myself since im very shy. the one time i did i dmed a guy from my school and he was nice, didn’t flat out reject me but he said he just wasn’t looking to talk with anyone right now. i’m at the point where im genuinly considering just dming

i have a history of really terrible psychosis with terrifying hallucinations and extremely terrifying delusions. for some reason, weed of all kinds often makes me hallucinate terrible things and go crazy and think things are after me and make me go into psychosis all over again. but, actual hallucinogenic drugs like acid or shrooms don’t do that to me, they just mad me really happy and colors look pretty and a few patterns. anyone else who has a history of psychosis relate to this or is it just me? 😭