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I had tardive dyskinesia (involuntary movements) caused by long-term use of antipsychotics for 2 and a half years before developing fnd for the second time. The first time I had pain in my vagina from csa for 5 years before a gynaecologist diagnosed me. This time I developed it after coming off olanzapine (the possible cause of my tardive dyskinesia apart from lithium) too quickly. I had severe involuntary movements and was treated as a malingerer by my psychologist and a horrible emergency doctor. Now the movements have mostly stopped but I am bent over, tip to the side when sitting, have a severe loss of balance and can barely walk 50m without falling over, so I am now using a wheelchair f

Years ago, my partner and I were friends with a mother and a son. My partner perpetrated domestic violence against me, and the son perpetrated domestic violence against the mother. The mother frequently came over to our house seeking shelter from her son. There was AVO in place to protect her from him that stipulated that he was to have no contact with her, but she didn't honour it and had him living with her all the time.

One time, I came over to their place before work, and the son was drunk which was a frequent thing. He pushed his mother onto the floor and when I said to leave her alone, he pushed me over too. I was in such shock, I said I should call the police but I never went through

Years ago, my partner and I were friends with a mother and a son. My partner perpetrated domestic violence against me, and the son perpetrated domestic violence against the mother. The mother frequently came over to our house seeking shelter from her son. There was AVO in place to protect her from him that stipulated that he was to have no contact with her, but she didn't honour it and had him living with her all the time.

One time, I came over to their place before work, and the son was drunk which was a frequent thing. He pushed his mother onto the floor and when I said to leave her alone, he pushed me over too. I was in such shock, I said I should call the police but I never went through

I have been formally diagnosed with complex PTSD and DID. Some time ago, I had a recovered memory of my father briefly choking me in his car when I was six. I had flashbacks and it was a horrible experience remembering. Although I've had recovered memories of CSA which have been mostly corroborated, I'm just wondering if you can have them from childhood physical abuse too? Everywhere I look it seems to be all about CSA.

I have been formally diagnosed with complex PTSD and DID. Some time ago I had a recovered memory of my father briefly choking me in his car when I was six. I had flashbacks and it was a horrible experience remembering. Although I've had recovered memories of CSA which have been mostly corroborated, I'm just wondering if you can have them from childhood physical abuse? Everywhere I look it seems to be all about CSA.

I have been formally diagnosed with complex PTSD and DID. Some time ago I had a recovered memory of my father briefly choking me in his car. I had flashbacks and it was a horrible experience remembering. Although I've had recovered memories of CSA I'm just wondering if you can have them from childhood physical abuse? Everywhere I look it seems to be all about CSA.

Since I have become aware I have DID and have been diagnosed with it. I have found that two of my alters speak in American accents, mainly in private. However, usually when they come out to others, they speak in my native Australian accent. I experience co-consciousness and I guess I'm wondering if this is real and how it works.

Years ago, my boyfriend injected me with something that I believed was speed. Thinking about it since, maybe it was meth, because a girl stopped by to buy meth from him. Whatever it was, I got a rushing sensation in my throat, and what felt like a hundred orgasms at once for probably the first few hours. Then I felt high and invincible and more "capable" for the rest and started cleaning the motel. Then I had a major come down which were some of the worst feelings I've felt in my life. He shot me up several more times after this with this stuff and I went psychotic and he left me in a motel. Is there any way of telling if this was speed or meth?

Trigger warnings: CSA, child abuse, neglect, rape & SA, Intimate partner violence, suicidal behaviour, bullying

I have Complex PTSD and DID and have written a memoir about my experiences. I submitted it with the hope of being published and I have said that I was severely abused and traumatised in childhood and adulthood. What I mean by that is that I have had a lot of experiences that qualify as abuse and trauma that caused my conditions.

These include being emotionally, physically, and sexually abused my father including digital rape. Witnessing my father engage in intimate partner violence towards my mother. Having a mother who was an alcoholic - she emotionally abused me, was sometimes

I have been formally diagnosed with DID. Years ago I was asked to talk about my trauma. Another voice spoke out of me and said that my father had tried to strangle me as a child. I then got a somatic flashback feeling burning in my throat and chest. Less than an hour later the visual memory came back to me. Could this be real? Is this how DID works?

I put some of my manuscript through an AI detector and it highlighted sections that are my own work. I'm worried about not being published because of it.

Years ago a man tried and failed to push himself inside of me without my consent, only slightly penetrating the vagina if penetration occurred at all. I remember him telling me that my vagina was “closed”, and he couldn’t get it in. Is it possible that it was in some of the way and he couldn't push it in any further or is it more likely that penetration didn't occur at all?

I had this friend who was supposed to be my best friend. Instead she was controlling, abusive and a bully. She died from cancer some time ago and her behaviour towards me has made it very hard to grieve.

We became friends in high school and she spent a lot of time putting me down, criticising my appearance, and shoving her backwards opinions down my throat. She made out she was so beautiful she was a model, and I was just the fat, ugly one with greasy hair and pimples. Back then I was going through severe abuse at home and it made it almost impossible to stand up to her. One time I ended up telling her she was making me feel depressed. She wrote a long horrible letter accusing of everything

I've been on and off olanzapine/Zyprexa for over a decade. It's the only antipsychotic I can tolerate, getting terrible movement disorder side effects from the others. Unfortunately for me, Zyprexa has led to extreme binge eating and serious weight gain. Some psychiatrists will acknowledge this side effect whilst others will blame you for being morbidly obese and claim their other patients don't eat anything extra, just put on weight. I recently stopped Zyprexa for a few months and stopped bingeing. Since I restarted it I have restarted bingeing and have gained 10kg/22lb in 6 weeks. When I was off Zyprexa for years at a time I was thin. Has anyone else had binge eating with Zyprexa?