TopEndDan

Hey guys and girls,

Well, 2 fucking years clean!

https://www.reddit.com/r/OpiatesRecovery/comments/s36fln/12_months/

It can be done. It is worth it. Opiates are bullshit.

Keep up the good fight everyone!

Thankyou to everyone here, we need all the support we can get.

Hi all, hope everyone is kicking goals!

I'm 12 months clean from opiates today.

Happy to just have a cold beer and a blunt now.

Posted this to give a bit of hope to those struggling.

It can be done. 18 months ago I was ready to eat a bullet. Right now, future looks bright 😁

I see huge variations in pricing all over the globe which makes it very hard to compare but hypothetically, (talking about the US) if all the shit street opiates were replaced with pharma grade dope, what price would you consider fair in todays market?

Being an Aussie, I already pay top dollar for drugs due to living on an island and having the best border force/customs in the world. It obviously still gets through; $400/g for me, which seems expensive but its clean, pure and consitant. From what I've seen, places in the US getting ~$100/g but quality is hit and miss or fent. I'm pretty sure I know what I'd prefer... what say you?

What do you personally consider clean? No opiates? No drugs at all or just not using your DOC?

Discuss.

Me personally, clean is staying off the drug that cause the majority of issues, dope. If I'm of the dope, I'm clean. Everything else is just dabbling. If thats me justifying my other drug use im ok with that but dope is my achillies heel. (like most of you I'm guessing.

Oh and I'm not a sub/mat believer but thats my personal opinion only.

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edit- Interesting responses so far, I love how we each define our own sobriety. I still drink, smoke weed and fuck with meth every now again. As long as I don't use heroin, I'm clean.....imo

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2nd edit- Thanks for all y

I had committed to a relapse after 10 weeks sober and for whatever reason decided to call my close friend/support with the intention if she didnt answer, its on. She answered. Now i sit here broken but still clean, thanks Tam.

Fml, after 5 weeks clean I relapsed hard :( started with Tina on Thursday and by sat night it was goofballs. Fuck I hate myself so much. I can't say no. I feel like I'm losing grip of reality, this doesn't feel good. Cleaned up atm but until at when? This weekend? FUUUUUUCCCCKKKKK.

Been clean from dope since the 5th August. I may have pushed it too far this time and got in over my head. I thought I had shit under control but I was actually setting fire to everything around me. If I dont stop imma lose my daughter so here I am. Trying my best not to buy some dope and so far so good. I'm pissed at myself for my apathy and selfishness, and pretty much ruining my 5 year run of chipping turning to a full blown habit, ffs.

I dunno, I'm on an emotional rollercoaster and I know y'all understand. 1 day at a time...

Oy you lazy cunts, whats crackin? Hope your days are noddy and your dope is endess haha do me a solid and check out my thread in the link and give us your 2 cents worth.

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Mods- Let me know if this is no good. It's in the spirit of harm reduction, just more people and traffic here :D

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edt- helps if i add the link derp https://www.reddit.com/r/heroin/comments/caustc/my_aussie_heroin_homies/

De ja vue-

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I can't believe I'm back here again I thought as I crossed the road. Memories of the shit hole we used to squat in came flooding back as the house came into view. A single story weatherboard house, most of the windows were broken, the paint was peeling and the surrounding flora had begun its timeless march back over the property. It's even worse for wear now than it was back then, I wouldn't have thought that was possible I chuckled to myself. I say back then but in reality it was only 2 years ago, it felt like a fucking lifetime. 2 years ago she was still with me and we had the world at our feet, now pffftt. Something I'm not ready to deal with. Fuck it, mu

Are there any options left?

I 'll preface this with I have no local connect, all my dope comes from the dnms. I got put in contact with a new plug recently by a mutual friend so I go see her hoping to get on for the weekend since my parcel didn't arrive. I get there and all she has on deck is tina,fuuuuuckk she says she can get dope but is waiting for dope man to get in contact, theres not a big heroin scene here and not requested much from what I gathered so who knows, fuck now I'm scattered as fuck lol anyway hopefully I'm getting close to a local connect for dope, cmon junkie jesus help a brother out