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my selfharm gets so much worse when i’m hypomanic. i was wondering if anyone that experiences mania/hypomania has experienced this?

if not what happens? it’s only my second shot and i’m anxious

over the last year a friend sexually harassed me. she would touch my upper thighs and touch me any chance she got. she’d get me high and get even more physical with me and try and hint i should kiss her. she’d pull me around when high and caress my face in her lap and i’d just sit there uncomfortable. lots of other shit happened aswell. but even though she never sexually assaulted me, the fear of her finally doing it made my life hell during the months that was going on. (i’m home now, this was at college). it got to the point i almost asked her to fuck me so i would at least feel like i had some control of the situation (i was an idiot for that). i also found out someone from her highschool

i’ve finally had enough of all of this. i need help. i have to talk to my dad tonight and tell him what’s going on with me, which is gonna suck. but it’s what needs to happen

i don’t usually make very large ones. maybe 2 1/2 inches long at most (generally). but i have a few that are gaping a tiny bit

i’m in hell on vacation. i have to eat when we all go as a group to three times a day and it’s making me feel insane. i’m getting to the point where i’d rather die than do this everyday for a week jesus christ

i’m 19 and have two alcoholic parents, one of which is addicted to pills. to say that i have addictive genes is an understatement. i’ve been self harming for years but over the past year have started to use nicotine extensively and drinking more and more. i’m in school and i’d think to myself “i’ll take a shot before class” and then would talk myself out of it. i’d talked to a friend about how i’d been wanting to drink more and more and he was concerned so i never brought it up again. i’d drink every night my roommate wasn’t in the room and since coming home for summer i drink 3/4 nights a week. i’m about to go to a graduation party for a cousin and had the thought of doing a shot beforehand

i’ve also started using nic again :) literally why am i like this oh wait the childhood trauma LOL

i’m afab and a trans male and have been thinking a lot about my connection to girlhood- i was socialized as a girl, wasn’t out until i was 18, and feel connected to it in someway still despise identifying as a boy. i was curious about what other trans people thought (afab and amab answers are welcome!!! )

weve both agreed we want to be in a relationship once we know each other better/give it more time :) and i told him i wouldn’t mind if he fell in love with someone else and wanted to pursue that while being in a relationship with me and i would want to be able to do the same and he was super understanding and even said he has had a crush on a couple and loved them equally before!

i’ve recently been struggling with feeling like i own way to much (despite barely owning anything/owning a below average amount). i just feel like i don’t want to be like my mother and be materialistic. the thought of it makes me feel gross. i want to have enough that I can put it all in a car and go

i grew up with a hoarder mother and now feel like i shouldnt own anything. it makes me feel materialistic and i’m starting to realize that’s probably because of her