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Hi, I work in IT and I am burning out basically from what my company expects. I need to become cloud certified, so on top of my current work I need to study for my certifications (outside of work). I also need to learn a stupid amount of tools (currently in Ansible training) and honestly I just feel like I’m back in high school (eg dumb).

What do y’all do to keep up? Even with meds and therapy and getting enough sleep I just feel straight up overwhelmed. My manager insists I’m doing fine, but recent layoffs have me terrified I will be next if I don’t stay up to date on my skills.

Ahhhh!!! Can anyone relate?

I wrote a big suicide note. I don’t know. I’m nearing 30. I use my looks to keep people around and satisfy my loneliness. The only reason I am still here is complete cowardice. I’m writing on here as some stupid last gesture, one I’ve made so many times before.

I’m not...happy. I don’t know what happiness is. I don’t know what friendship is, not really.

When I was in middle school I used to hate gym class. I tried my best to not participate. I got quite good at it. The problem came when we would play dodgeball. I was so good at being ignored by my fellow students that I almost always was the last one left. I hated that feeling...being on display, being so visible because I was inherently i

It fucking annoys me when I tell someone I’m depressed and they say “why.” Like, when someone tells you they have the fucking flu do you ask why? How are people so dumb about mental illness?

I have people who say “yeah, I was depressed before,” and I’m like “what did you do” and they say it just went away. Seriously? You just woke up and it was fucking gone? Poof?

Everyone always has their golden fix for me too. My mom tells me to drink lemon water. My dad says “stop worrying so much.” My coworker says “meditate.” Exercise. Volunteer. Quit your job and go do what you love (which is what, exactly?).

I try so, so, so hard to not be depressed. But if I’m not pushing myself 120% to stop it,

My emotions and feelings towards everything, from my parents, to my job, hobbies, life, myself, coworkers, people, movies, etc etc change, from day to day, hour to hour, even within literal minutes.

The more I analyze it and recognize the worse I feel. I can’t make plans with anyone anymore because I basically have to hope I feel like going when the time comes - and usually I don’t.

If my partner asks me what I want for dinner too early, like 2-3 hours before, I know I can’t tell him. Because I won’t want it in 2-3 hours. I asked my partner to get me Taco Bell once, and within the 30 minutes of him getting it I decided I didn’t want it anymore.

I can’t help it. My coworker doesn’t even

What's the deal? When I'm super anxious, I am not depressed. I'm just anxious all the time. But when I have little anxiety, I'm extremely depressed. I started taking anxiety medication and my anxiety has dropped dramatically within the last few months, but my depression seems to be getting worse.

Has this happened to anyone else? All my doctors told me "treat the anxiety and the depression will take care of itself." But it isn't working. So...what gives?

Okay, so I'm a 27 year old woman who has always struggled with orgasming during sex. I am super insecure about it and get really envious of women who can orgasm easily. I have had a decent amount of sex and I think I am pretty good at communicating what I want in bed. But it still either takes me forever to orgasm (like at least 30-45 minutes of penetration or stimulating my clit or both) or I just never climax. It's honestly exhausting, so most of the time I just tell my partners don't worry about it.

But...I don't feel sexually fulfilled. I know I shouldn't place such a huge emphasis on my orgasm but I do. The men I'm with always feel bad they can't make me orgasm and then I feel bad too.

Hey, I'm trying to get help for my problems with my relationships. I was married for 4 years and it was an emotionally abusive relationship than ended when he had an affair with my best female friend. I don't know if this was the cause of my commitment issues, but since then I've had difficulties committing in a relationship and it has gotten progressively worse.

I used to be able to stay in a relationship until talks of marriage started, and then I would bail. But now I can barely start a relationship before getting freaked and sabotaging the relationship or running.

The solution I assume is to not be in a relationship. But when I'm alone, I have a lot of anxiety. I don't really have fa

Hello everyone. I read through the list of 20 Diversion Tactics that narcissists use, and I am struggling to understand if my dad is a narcissist. He doesn't really fit the mold, but he has some tendencies that I have always called narcissism. Here's a general list of some "red flags" I have thought were narcissism:

• Becomes enraged when he thinks someone is making fun of him or insulting his intelligence (I made a joke to him once when I was 12, and he stomped around the house for 30 minutes screaming and calling me a bitch)
• Gets furious at other people for things they can't control (our computer stopped working and he screamed at the entire family so much that my mom had to take us to

So my anxiety never used to cause me intense physical sensations. But over the years, I have started to get bad stomach pains and it totally fucks up my digestion. Usually when I'm very anxious I end up sick with a cold or something similar.

Why is this? When I was younger and had anxiety it was at least tolerable because it didn't affect me so much physically. Now I feel like I need to rush off to a bathroom and hide whenever I get anxious because it feels like my body is going to freak out.

This has, of course, made me MORE anxious and I avoid shit even more. Making big changes in my life like switching jobs and meeting new people seem impossible with the anxiety I have.

Any else relate

Hey, so I don't want to be "that girl", but I've been working in IT for about 2 years now and I work primarily with men. And let me tell you...I totally understand now why women choose not to work in IT or change to a different career.

I work in a data center, and there are about 50 people that I work with. Up until recently, there were 5 or 6 women who worked in the department. We went through a round of layoffs, and now I'm the only woman left with the exception of 1 contractor who is from India.

I hate it. I want to eventually work as an architect in an infrastructure team, and there are absolutely 0 women here in that field. They all get moved off into management or some other job. Th

I feel like I am constantly made fun of for my ADHD tendencies. I got used to family laughing at me growing up for forgetting things, losing everything, and generally being a space cadet and a klutz.

Now, at work I even notice it. I know I'm really sensitive, but it's hard to deal with being made fun of, even if it's just in a joking manner, because they are making fun of my fidgeting, my forgetfulness, my inattention, etc etc.

Anyone else feel the same way? How do you deal with it? I don't want to hide my ADHD symptoms, but I don't want people to joke about it all the time.

How do you guys deal with boredom? My whole life is boring, my job is boring. I finally have stability in my life, but I am plagued with perpetual boredom.

I'm having problems where once or twice a week I will go to bed at my normal time and get 8-9 hours of sleep, but I wake up feeling like I didn't sleep at all. Does this happen to anyone else? I don't have issues falling asleep, but I will wake up constantly and not sleep consistently for more than an hour or two.

It makes my next day total hell. I feel sick, tired, and anxious. It happens too frequently that I can't just skip work when it happens.

Any advice? I see a lot of people here have insomnia, but what about this? Is this related to ADHD? Any way to fix it?

I'm stressing out this morning because I have multiple things going on today. I have two apartment showings, therapy, and I am at work. Which means I'll have to go back and forth between work and my appointments. It's frustrating because I get totally thrown off when my days aren't my usually 8-5 work day.

I feel super anxious that I'm not going to get to places on time, and won't be able to fully relax until I'm home tonight.

How do you guys cope with days like this? I feel silly but I get so overwhelmed at the slightest added responsibility.