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This hive minded circle jerk of self-righteous dick suckers that is Reddit. I despise it utterly, the pretentious "open" minded nature we all love that turns on you the moment you find the "wrong" kind of open mindedness.

I hate it, I want to hit it and quit it, but I can't since its now an obsession.

Just agree with the hive mind, everything is fine, all I have to do is support the consensus....

The up vote/down vote dichotomy is driving me insane, it reinforces this bullshit absolutism mentality where something is either agreeable to the hive mind or disagreeable, the world is never so black and white.

Anyway, fuck it all, Reddit = Fuckit

Last Friday I drove with a friend out to a really remote area to do some astrophotography (just for context we're both exChristians). The evening was really peaceful, other than the occasional coyote howling in the distance we had an extremely relaxing night.

Toward the end we began packing up camp, about 1AM local, and we saw something in the glow of my friends headlamp that really defies all rational description. It appears to be a small bug at first, but the more we observed, the less it seemed organic I guess, we noticed it was following my friends headlamp with disturbing accuracy. I asked him to take a step closer and the object moved backward at one point.

I got within three feet o

You know, just mindless anger siloed so you aren't labeled a troll and banned. I assume we all have those days that we use 4chan for, but I wondered if such a place existed on Reddit.

Right now the one that wants to put the gun in my mouth is winning, it feels like it wants me to do it before I lose the nerve again. I don't think it would really hurt things, maybe short term, but no one really likes how I am when I'm honest. I'm always too dark, too cynical, too unhappy, too pessimistic, too atheist, too realistic. I'm never loved as me.

The most motivating thought I have is to kill myself, happy Monday r/suicidewatch.

I could't cut it as a Christian, too much dissonance and nonsense.

I don't really fit in with the atheists, agnostics, secular humanists or any other bullshit existentialist prophets.

I was born sick, I was told that my entire life, too bad the cure was a fake and now I can't forget the lie, I'm ready to through it all away and just fucking die.

I don't want to get better, I've been in therapy for years, I want vengeance. My life is forfeit, at least that's what they said, so now all I do is plan for it.

Why would anyone recover from being told they were garbage their entire life? I would rather die alone than be another Sylvester Stallone and convince oth

Does anyone find it strange or annoying that Google Music for Android has parametric EQ and fun reverb presets while Google Music in Chrome running on Windows or Linux has nothing?

Windows has next to garbage for EQ, the only time I had a decent one was when I paid for a dedicated sound card back in the early 2000s, there doesn't even appear to be a demand, so I just wonder why Google doesn't incorporate the same EQ in the browser.

I may even try to build Google Music APK out using ARC Welder to see what it would be like on my Chromebook.

/rant

I just need to write this out to see how it sounds and if anyone can relate. You're a great community and it helps tremendously to have a sub where we can free associate with virtually r/nojudgment. You all rock.

So years after deconverting I still feel highly dissonant with several things. The largest one is sexuality in general, I am married to a Christian [F] and I respect monogamy/love my spouse but I constantly fantasize about being with other women. Not even in a superficial or shallow scenario like a one-night stand, I really find myself longing to be in other committed/intimate relationships. I only dated one person and due to purity culture, that was the person I married and then

I know there was a recent thread on this two months back but it was not absolutely clear what HDD was the current status quo upgrade, I didn't see any model numbers mention which was frustrating as that changes pretty routinely.

I am curious if anyone thinks there would be value in going with something like this over the STDR2000102? simply for the perfor