u/basicallyaperson
I made it out! Of course that doesn't mean I'm fully independent and free...but it's a step towards that. Oddly enough, I feel no anxiety here. My roommate and I are making friends (my mom told me my roommates would dislike me). Doing things before without being surveilled all the time makes it fun. I feel the happiest I've been.
Despite being in the wrong my Nmom will turn the blame towards me and force an apology out of me or else the abuse worsens. If I do not apologize all hell breaks loose.
Excluding my sisters and nieces/nephews.
I'm 19, preparing to move into my college dorm this Wednesday. It'll be my first year after a gap year that was spent figuring out what I want to do in life. I feel a bit of sadness, but not because I'll be away from my mother. It's because I'll be away from my friends. What I'm feeling at the moment believe it or not is relief. I'll be away from my mother and it brings me joy.
I no longer feel any want or need to associate with my parents, simply because I realized they are the main ones who fucked me up. The finding about about my father's infidelity with multiple women at the age of 11. The years and years of domestic disputes, and the eventual d
Excluding my sisters and nieces/nephews.
I'm 19, preparing to move into my college dorm this Wednesday. I feel a bit of sadness, but not because I'll be away from my mother. It's because I'll be away from my friends. What I'm feeling at the moment believe it or not is relief. I'll be away from my mother and it brings me joy.
I no longer feel any want or need to associate with my parents, simply because I realized they are the main ones who fucked me up. The finding about about my father's infidelity with multiple women at the age of 11. The years and years of domestic disputes, and the eventual divorce that they put me in the middle of. The verbal and emotional abuse I dealt with from bot
I used to not even moan when masturbating because I always assumed a prone position (on my stomach), and only did it a certain way. Once I decided to experiment and masturbate lying on my back it's increased my pleasure by x10. Which is great, right?
Well for the most part, yes. But it feels so good that I genuinely find myself unable to stifle my moans, groans, and heavy breathing. I get so caught up in the pleasure that I lose control of my face, my legs shake, and I of course let out an uncontrollable moan. One that gets a bit loud once orgasming. Which is annoying.
I do not live alone, and I'm eventually moving on campus in a couple weeks. I fear that I'll be heard, and I need to find
Let’s say you encounter a really pretty girl or guy that you’re aiming to further things with. If they hypothetically ask you to get tested with proof before getting intimate how would you feel? How would you react?
19F been watching pornography since the age of 9. I realized just how bad it was a while ago, and how addicted I became (every single time I'd play some porn while doing it) And it would be MULTIPLE TIMES a day. The first 2 times without that content felt agonizing and I couldn't reach an O, But today I did and I'm so proud of myself. I don't feel the guilt I felt afterwards like I did when I watched porn.
Anyways I'm just really proud of myself right now. That's all.
It's worrying to see the genre and concept of it (along with step-sis/bro) being so popular. Especially considering that it capitalizes, advertises, and profits off of the said porn-star in the video being "just 18" or JUST meeting the mark of legality in terms of showing how young one can be.
Even if the said actor is well above the age of 18, they are more often than not presented to be young (mannerisms and attire like a teenager and sometimes younger). And more often than not the titles and content of these videos get off on coercion as well. It's basically saying "they'd be younger if it was legal." Getting a sexual kick off of "taking away ones innocence" borders pedophilic behaviors
(tw: assault)
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Bruised, beaten, battered down, broken,
In a bout of panic fear refuses to fray,
An unwitting passenger of their own rape
Both body and mind left stranded without the directions for escape.
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A conscious carcass,
Left for unclean hands to blemish,
And upon the time of his finish,
A womb left empty.
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