Pompomxe

This was awfully realistic, so much in fact I can't even really distinct if it was reality or if it was a dream. Nonetheless, I remember having the awareness that it was a ghost/spirit that was having sex with me and I could feel but I could not actually see it and I was laying on my side. I just thought this was really strange, especially because I cannot even recall if it was actually real or if it was a dream.

My dream began in a dark club with some girls around me and one of them asked if I wanted to fuck a certain guy, which I said no to ten times and new people began to flood in and when they sat down I talked to some of them.

The scene switches to me as a fawn in a room made of ice. The ice began to circle around me, kind of attacking me and trapping me. I felt hopeless and defeated. I thought it was the end for me and that I was gonna die but I noticed a hallway around the corner I could escape down.

I'm human again and notice I'm in a stranger's home so I hop the fence; it's completely dark outside. I go into another home which isn't mine, but I call my mom and ask where she is and she s

I was with a new friend of mine. She admitted to me that she smoked weed sometimes when her mom wasn't around which surprised me because she seems like a really innocent girl, and at least in the waking life she is. For some reason we had to travel to some other alien worlds for no reason, and I complained saying we could have at least hung out first. Two portals appeared before us, they were circular and held some image of alien worlds. I don't remember the process of going there and what it looked like, although I remembered physically leaping to some school prom. I saw one of my old friends there. I leaped over to him, and he said he knew what I was doing. The energy around him was a fire

I had a dream where I traveled to a different world with a group of other people. It mostly contained of kids. It was full of green plains and mountains dotted with vibrant pinks. Later on I was in a basketball court with the ship leader while the kids were playing. For some reason I kind of missed Earth, although I didn’t like Earth. I went outside at night with someone else and saw a floating roof with a tree on top of it. The moon and a rainbow was above it. We climbed on the basketball court roof and the other person held open a hole on the roof as I slipped inside. That was all.

I was in the 1300-1400 year era of Europe, and I was running through the cobbled streets surrounded by castle walls.I was wailing and crying as I ran because I heard the screams and cries of the people who died there. This was all.

I was considering worshipping Bastet because my family owns a cat rescue and we have quite a few cats in the home. However I don’t think it would be right to just randomly chose which god to worship without their approval as well. Is there any special way to go about this?

I had a dream I was in my room smoking weed from a bong and I was actually getting high from it(although I was smoking from the bottom not the top of it which I thought was weird). I would hide it every time my mom would come into the room and then I'd keep coming back to it to smoke more. I was wondering what this could mean since I don't smoke weed.

I've experienced three disassociative episodes in the past two months but I have no childhood trauma or family issues. The only change in my life that has happened is that I have gone to home schooling and my depression has come back among other disorders bubbling up. They're not triggered by anything in particular, like once I looked in the mirror and I didn't recognize myself so I had a panic attack and didn't feel connected to myself. In a movie theatre I dissociated for no reason. There was another time where I was writing an essay and I dissociated. I don't know the cause of it because I researched it and all it says is that trauma is involved.

I haven't found any websites that really go into detail and I know people on this subreddit would surely know more about it.

I'm not sure if this is a product of anxiety or something else which is why I'm asking. I was pretty paranoid when it was happening.

V.1 I just wanna hop the fence,
And make my future past tense
I want to burn until there's nothing left
And live only to do it again
Look at me and then you will see
I must break this thing inside of me
If you understood you would agree
That my hatred will succeed
So let me set fire to all I have known
And watch in silence as I bleed
Flames dancing in my eyes,
The fire is reaching out to me
Dancing as I fall onto my knees

V.2 I just wanna hop the fence,
And make my future past tense
I want to go up in smoke, burn
Until there is nothing left,
And live only to do it again
Look at me and you will see
I must break this thing inside of me

I don't know who I am and I don't know what I am. I'm already in a shit situation and I hate myself so I want to bring destruction upon every part of myself until it is completely broken. I feel so self destructive I just want to kill every part of myself. I don't care about fixing anything anymore. The urge to do it gets stronger everyday. I know I should be worried but I don't care. I was just wondering if this is relatively normal to crave doing this to myself so much. I've also been really fascinated with blood recently and I've been imagining myself bleed.

Just wondering if anyone felt the same way or if it's just me.

As you swim through the valleys of my demise  
Please understand my mind has died too many times,  
And the personality you loved so dearly is no longer mine  
I only own a name and a soul that no longer shines  
After all, I much prefer floating through cloudy skies  
Where trust, love, and happiness are not all a big lie  
So do not cry and think this is a final goodbye,  
For bodies die, but souls are forever butterflies  

(I haven't edited it at all so it's probably not that great.)

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